WOKE UP FEELING A TYPE OF WAY, PROMPTED ME TO READ IN MY BIBLE, I HAD JUST STARTED THE NEW TESTAMENT, MATTHEW, THE FIRST CHAPTER, SO I MOVED ON TO THE SECOND CHAPTER AND I HAD A BIT MORE CLARITY. IMMEDIATELY PRIOR TO THIS, MY DAUGHTER ABRUPTLY KNOCKED ON MY DOOR, RIGHT BEFORE 8AM TO SAY HER FRIEND IS ALMOST HERE TO TAKE HER TO THE BANK AND THEN TO THE TRAIN STATION SO SHE CAN HEAD TO THE AIRPORT AND BUY HER TICKET TO LEAVE THE COUNTRY. MY DAUGHTER REALLY WANTS TO LIVE A LIFE IN A BRAND NEW COUNTRY AND I AM HAVING THE HARDEST TIME TRYING TO ACCEPT THIS AS I FEEL SO MANY THINGS REGARDING HER DECISION.
I HAVE CONTINUED TRYING TO IMPART MY OPINION, WISDOM AND DISCERNMENT UPON HER, HOWEVER IT SEEMS THERE IS NO NEED TO TRY AND DETER HER AS HER HEART AND MIND IS SET ON THIS NEW ADVENTURE IN LIFE . MY ONLY REQUEST IS THAT AS AN 18 YEAR YOUNG LADY, SHE MANUEVER LIFE HERE IN THE USA FIRST ON HER OWN, AS SHE HAS LED WHAT SOME CONSIDER A MORE SHELTERED EXISTENCE, HOWEVER SHE HAS DEFINITELY BEEN EXPOSED TO MUCH AND SHE IS NO ORDINARY CHILD. I AM REALLY HOPING THAT PERHAPS MY HEART CAN BE FILLED WITH PEACE AND JOY PRIOR TO HER DEPARTURE, AND PART OF ME HOPES SHE DECIDES TO PERHAPS WAIT ANOTHER YEAR UNTIL SHE DECIDES TO LEAVE BUT I CAN ONLY CONTINUE TO PRAY.
SO YEA, I GOT TROUBLE OF MY OWN, FEELING TROUBLED RATHER WITH THE THOUGHT OF MY DAUGHTER NOT BEING HERE IN THE FLESH ON THE DAILY. I AM GOING TO MISS HER BEING HERE WITH ME, BEING ABLE TO SEE HER FACE AND SPEND TIME WITH HER, DOING SILLY THINGS TOGETHER, WATCHING TV TOGETHER, EATING WITH ONE ANOTHER, JUST HAVING HER PRESENCE IS SOMETHING I HAVE ALWAYS HAD SINCE EVEN BEFORE SHE WAS BORN. I DO NOT KNOW A LIFE WITHOUT HER BEING UNDER MY WING. HOWEVER, I KNOW SHE CAN’T STAY RIGHT BY MY SIDE FOREVER. THIS IS A PIECE OF MY LIFE, MY LOVE, MY EARTH, MY EXISTENCE. 6 DAYS UNTIL TROUBLE DROPS. PEACE, PLUM.